Well, it’s been a month since my failed transfer and we’re starting the prep for my June’s new IVF cycle. It will hopefully be the third successful egg retrieval and fifth attempt. It will be a long agonist protocol which is similar to January’s (the most successful). My agonist injections have begun and I’m almost done with my birth control; I take my last pill on 5/31. I start stims this cycle on 6/4, shortly after my 31st birthday.
While 31 isn’t old, by any means, it’s certainly another jarring reminder for an infertile woman with stage IV endometriosis and a low ovarian reserve that the clock is ticking, loudly and quickly. Hopefully, we are able to complete the egg banking cycles as planned, but there are many variables that could cause the plan to go awry.
I am hopeful and terrified, but I’ve got to keep moving or I’ll feel like I’m in purgatory, resolutionless. I wish someone would be able to tell me how this all ends. I’ve been doing acupuncture weekly, so hopefully this will have a positive effect on my egg retrieval. I’m trying to manage my stress since it can’t be avoided. I’m not sure how that’s going. Challenging for certain in the past few weeks.
I’m reminding myself of all the side effects that will be coming soon. Somehow the words fall short when the effects arrive. I’ve been on various supplements since before the third attempt at IVF, so hopefully the continuation of them for this long will bring good cheer and mass quantities to my eggies. I’m terrified about the genetic testing, but the fear is of the end (and some other things that are more than an afterthought, but deserve their own blog), I suppose. That being said, at least we would have clear direction on where to go from here.
Hopefully, by my 32nd birthday, we can have many PGS normal embryos frozen and/or transferred and happy.
Here we go again!