Leslie Knope and I have in common the fact that our most genius headlines are probably too long to publish in a newspaper. (https://medium.com/@kaleighf/leslie-knope-and-the-secret-to-great-headlines-dee48ec9744) Good thing this hasn’t been picked up by the Wall Street Journal, yet.
So, any type of “ist” is generally met with some type of negative reaction from more people than not, but I’d like to take this time to remind everyone what the actual definition of feminist is: a person who believes in the political, economic, and social equality of the sexes. Most of you who know me know that gender roles have never been important to me. I believe that people should do what works for them and that ultimately, a partner is just that – a partner. If everything that needs to get done, does, then it doesn’t really seem to matter who does it.
That being said, something that has probably been the hardest for me emotionally throughout the past several years is just not feeling like a woman. I can’t do the one thing that I am supposed to be able to do, biologically, and it’s all-consuming and at times, debilitating. I don’t know how to stop feeling this way, so in true Annie fashion, I’m doing whatever I can to try to reverse that feeling which means taking all traditional gender roles and trying to fulfill them (aka overcompensating for my failures in other arenas). Surprise! It doesn’t help. I know that being a woman is not comprised of being a reproductive vessel, but when you can’t do it, it is a hard thing to work through.
Tonight will be night three of stimming! I woke up this morning with a different type of headache, so I’m hoping it’s all working. Other than that, I feel good. I can hardly wait for my doctor’s appointment on Friday and I’m talking to my reprosys daily to make sure it’s fully motivated.
Cheers & Love!