For the support of people who either empathize with or know the pain. This song is everything. https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=7hO5m9UUm2k

This has been awful for me to write and I've been avoiding it. But, the one consistent thing about life is that it goes on, regardless of how it feels. On Monday, J decided not to go into work before the appointment so we could hang out at home for a bit in the morning. … Continue reading Losing what I didn’t have 

So what to do when you have the longest 24 hour wait in history (followed by an even longer two week wait)? Well, here is some insight on the things that I've done as mainly recommended by the internet: Had my last cup of coffee (acid is not helpful, regardless of caffeine) Bathed in unscented… Continue reading T minus 24 hours….

Grow, grow, grow will be the chant going for me this weekend.  I got the call shortly after I wrote my piece lamenting waiting. So, after three days, they want the embryos to be 8 cells (ideally). In addition to counting the cells, they give each embryo a grade from 1-3, 1 being the best,… Continue reading The State of the Embies

I've not ever really found an effective strategy to deal with waiting and anticipation but to stay busy. As irony has it, I decided to turn down an opportunity to visit with family this weekend so I could "relax." So, next time this happens, I invite everyone to remind me that taskless solitude isn't relaxing.… Continue reading The art of waiting (and what to expect when you aren’t expecting)