I think I can, I think I can….

Whenever I try reaching a goal, the little engine that could always plays in the back of my mind. I always have a chant going to motivate me when I’m feeling down.

Anyway, I had not received a call by 10:00 am this morning, so naturally I called. They said M was with a patient and she would have to call me back. Well, I can’t tell you how bad waiting for something like this is…. I went on with my day and of course, received a call when I was on a different call. Luckily, the person didn’t mind if I called them back (thank you very much for understanding) and I was able to answer the call. M said that she couldn’t give me any better news and that 2 out of 2 eggs fertilized properly, so I have two babies (in the embryonic stage)!!!!!!!!!!!!  I was elated and burst into tears immediately – par for the course for me in recent times.

So, now, we wait until Saturday when I see if my babies have survived and what grade they are. We are shooting for a Monday implantation and the freaking out just continues. I just want to go see them and talk to them, though I know it likely won’t make a difference.  I am so, so, so, happy, but also so much more worried now that I know they are starting an important part of their life. I love them so much and they are still in a petri dish at the moment. It’s an odd feeling.

So, I am counting down the hours until I hear again – hopefully fewer than 36.  One step at a time and this step went well! 🙂 Thank you so much for all the prayers and thoughts. I’ll welcome them to keep coming if you have room.

Cheers & Love.

5 thoughts on “I think I can, I think I can….

  1. Wonderful!!!!! I hope you are able rest and gather your energy. I haven’t been a parent, but I think your feelings and anxiety are part of being a parent. You will be a great one!!

    Sent from my iPhone



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